Being self-employed is a mixed back sometimes, sort of like that box of chocolates that Forrest talks about. Today is a chocolate cacao sort of day where I’m working, but it’s not real work… if you know what I mean. I’ve been painting the outside of my house with the help of my amazing parents who don’t know the meaning of getting older. They have more energy than I do and they are 81 and 82.
Working on my house projects with them spurs me on and gives me the support I need to get motivated. If I sit for too long on my own, I just let it slide and think ‘Oh, I’ll get to it one day’. I’ll wander off down to the beach with Tachi without an agenda and lose myself in the view and allow my mind to wander and come up with a creative insight for clients and my work. It’s a different kind of productive.
But then when Mum and Dad make the call and say, “We’ll be there Saturday at 9am!” Suddenly the three of Cups activates and essence of community/family invokes connection to create space for sharing and collaborating.
Over two weekends we achieved so much! We painted the front of the house, the trims, and the back of the house and even recycled some old cedar blinds and fixed the back doors and it look fabulous! It’s not so much about the work, it’s more about the connection and gratitude felt.
Then…
I’m left to my own devises and feel the desire to wander off on my own again. This house is over 100 years old, and it needs constant attention with little projects here and there (and I do get things done in my own time :). It’s a small house, tiny even. It suits my nature. When I was little, (I know I’ve mentioned this before) I loved to sit in cupboards and behind my bed, under trees. Wherever I could set up a cubby house, and that became my happy place. It’s how I connected with my spirit family, friends, my guide, James. It’s my creative space and connection to infinite wisdom.
And eventually I venture out and mingle with the world once again…
I spent months last year working with my virtual assistant Zoe, creating an online beginner tarot course (another surge of energy from the three of cups) and it was so enriching to bring it to life. I’d been running tarot workshops in Daylesford and Port Melbourne for the last 10 years and then when the ‘c’ word happened in the emperor year of 2020, and hierophant year of 2021, it all changed and so did my interpretation of community, thus the online version of the course became manifest.
Have you ever sat in front of a video camera and filmed yourself? It’s not my comfort zone, I can tell you that! I realised how important it was to bring the inner self into full view on the outside screen. Do I really look that boring when I talk? … I did… shiiiiiit.
So, I trained myself to smile on the inside and bring it forth to the outside and I ended up really enjoying the whole process. I loved sharing my love of tarot with a community that I was yet to meet. The three of cups energy was real and I could feel it coming into being. It took me a long time. I got there, and now the course is like a baby that I’m introducing to the world, slowly but surely.
If you would like to learn more about it…
So, it’s that flowing between the three and eight of Cups that is calling for attention. How do you behave when you connect with your tribe/family and how do you behave when you cross over into the ‘going it alone’ phase? I’ve got to say, I feel much more comfortable with the latter. And I’m so, so grateful for the first.
The three of cups is the couple becoming a family by bringing in a child, a dog, a project, a home, or a new creative style, a tarot course :). The 8 of Cups is the feeling there’s a quest calling your inner being to go on, to explore and experience – on your own. When you’re on your own how to do feel? If it’s lonely feel lonely, if it’s sad, feel sad if it’s wonder, feel wonder, etc. Being with others sometimes means we need to put our feelings to the side to accommodate others. I can guarantee you, that if you put your attention on your feelings when the eight of cups comes calling you will find your forever friend in your inner child who just wants to explore and wander… not a lost kind of wandering, rather a feeling that there’s something more to be explored, to experience. The eight represents the infinity symbol and we are all capable of connecting to the infinite possibilities that are seeing our vibrational match.
What we believe is our truth, we behave as if it is true, and we become the belief.
The eight of cups gives us the opportunity to explore our beliefs of who we are when we’re on our own and how we behave and who we become as a result. Having behavioural flexibility is always key to adapting in this everchanging and world.
When we become aware of our infinite nature and our connection to the oneness of experiences, we appreciate on a more profound level the soul-to-soul connections that we create as a result of the work we do in the three of cups and we touch people in a more profound and deeper way.
Allowing ourselves to wander and wonder, allows more connection to our soul tribe and community and this is more important than ever.
Happy wandering x
Tania x